Something deeply and very long-buried inside Esta, hammered down and down and down under different circumstances and still-hardwired inside him nonetheless, is interested in the prospect of horrible things not happening later.  If there is a way to accomplish that, it would quite like to know, or think about it if thinking about it would not itself be horrible.

It tries to push harder for the Cultural Adaptation thought to come out.

This is going directly against a lot of learned patterns and learned forbidden-patterns and midlevel generalizations.

The result is that Esta continues staring blankly into space without fully forming any verbal thoughts for some number of moments.

Something deeply and very long-buried inside Esta, hammered down and down and down under different circumstances and still-hardwired inside him nonetheless, is interested in the prospect of horrible things not happening later.  If there is a way to accomplish that, it would quite like to know, or think about it if thinking about it would not itself be horrible.

It tries to push harder for the Learned Cultural Adaptation thought to come out.

This is going directly against a lot of learned patterns and learned forbidden-patterns and midlevel generalizations.

The result is that Esta continues staring blankly into space without fully forming any verbal thoughts for some number of moments.