So now, Estha is now going to think about all the things he should be thinking about!  His brain has learned that thinking about how Mariona got altered is the sort of thing that potentially leads to pain if he is not careful in what he thinks.

The most obvious thing Esta should be thinking about is the complicated loadout of spells that Asmodeus has sent him.  Possibly Esta should have done that earlier and before taking any actions, really.  Maybe that Liberating Command was meant for some future event and Esta now wasted it, since it really doesn't seem like it was necessary... or maybe that is itself an illusion... or maybe Esta would've hesitated too long to Cure Light his hands and that would've been an error...

This is foolishness.  Esta needs to think about his godchosen spells in a more organized way.

So now, Estha is now going to think about all the things he should be thinking about!  His brain has learned that thinking about how Mariona got altered is the sort of thing that potentially leads to pain if he is not careful in what he thinks.

The most obvious thing Esta should be thinking about is the complicated loadout of spells that Asmodeus has sent him.  Possibly Esta should have done that earlier and before taking any actions, really.  Maybe that Liberating Command was meant for some future event and Esta has now wasted it, since it really doesn't seem like it was necessary... or maybe that superfluity is itself an illusion... or maybe Esta would've hesitated too long to Cure Light his hands and that would've been an error...

This is foolishness.  Esta needs to think about his godchosen spells in a more organized way.