"You can't speak the words, because if you speak them they'll become real.  No, I'm not reading your mind; Dispater sealed it against even gods, unless I put in enough effort that He'll notice.  Nethys can see through that, but He has tremendous difficulties in communicating, has to effectuate that in roundabout ways that almost never happen in real time.  Nethys knows what a possible Pilar thought, Nethys told Me of it; but what Nethys sees in advance of it happening can only be a possibility, and sometimes it's not right."

"Still.  This is what, according to Nethys, Pilar Pineda in one possibility was thinking, or rather, not letting herself think:"

"That your sin and flaw from the beginning, is that you thought it would be better if the people who want to go to Hell, could go to Hell, and the people who want to go Elysium could go to Elysium."

"You wish that Asmodeus were different from how He is.  You want to also know your master's affection and caress, and not only to be crushed down by correction and punishment."

"You were kinder to the other students at Ostenso academy than you should have been, and in your secret heart, even now, you don't feel that was wrong.  You feel like a bad Asmodean for having done it, but feeling that you were wrong to do it, isn't the same as feeling that the deed itself was wrong.  You've never truly felt that a single act of kindness you carried out was wrong in itself, only regretted that you were being a bad slave for doing it."

"What lies in your secret heart isn't even the respectably edgy kind of Good, where sometimes you feed an unwilling paladin to locusts to protect other people.  You're even worse than that.  You, Pilar Pineda, deep down in your heart, are nice."

"You can't speak the words, because if you speak them they'll become real.  No, I'm not reading your mind; Dispater sealed it against even gods, unless I put in enough effort that He'll notice.  Nethys can see through that, but He has tremendous difficulties in communicating, has to effectuate that in roundabout ways that almost never happen in real time.  Nethys knows what a possible Pilar thought, Nethys told Me of it; but what Nethys sees in advance of it happening can only be a possibility, and sometimes it's not right."

"Still.  This is what, according to Nethys, Pilar Pineda in one possibility was thinking, or rather, not letting herself think:"

"That your sin and flaw from the beginning, is that you thought it would be better if the people who want to go to Hell, could go to Hell, and the people who want to go to Elysium could go to Elysium."

"You wish that Asmodeus were different from how He is.  You want to also know your master's affection and caress, and not only to be crushed down by correction and punishment."

"You were kinder to the other students at Ostenso academy than you should have been, and in your secret heart, even now, you don't feel that was wrong.  You feel like a bad Asmodean for having done it, but feeling that you were wrong to do it, isn't the same as feeling that the deed itself was wrong.  You've never truly felt that a single act of kindness you carried out was wrong in itself, only regretted that you were being a bad slave for doing it."

"What lies in your secret heart isn't even the respectably edgy kind of Good, where sometimes you feed an unwilling paladin to locusts to protect other people.  You're even worse than that.  You, Pilar Pineda, deep down in your heart, are nice."

"You can't speak the words, because if you speak them they'll become real.  No, I'm not reading your mind; Dispater sealed it against even gods, unless I put in enough effort that He'll notice.  Nethys can see through that, but He has tremendous difficulties in communicating, has to effectuate that in roundabout ways that almost never happen in real time.  Nethys knows what a possible Pilar thought, Nethys told Me of it; but what Nethys sees in advance of it happening can only be a possibility, and sometimes it's not right."

"Still.  This is what, according to Nethys, Pilar Pineda in one possibility was thinking, or rather, not letting herself think:"

"That your sin and flaw from the beginning, is that you thought it would be better if the people who want to go to Hell, could go to Hell, and the people who want to go to Elysium could go to Elysium."

"You wish that Asmodeus were different from how He is.  You want to also know your master's affection and caress, and not only be crushed down by correction and punishment."

"You were kinder to the other students at Ostenso academy than you should have been, and in your secret heart, even now, you don't feel that was wrong.  You feel like a bad Asmodean for having done it, but feeling that you were wrong to do it, isn't the same as feeling that the deed itself was wrong.  You've never truly felt that a single act of kindness you carried out was wrong in itself, only regretted that you were being a bad slave for doing it."

"What lies in your secret heart isn't even the respectably edgy kind of Good, where sometimes you feed an unwilling paladin to locusts to protect other people.  You're even worse than that.  You, Pilar Pineda, deep down in your heart, are nice."

"You can't speak the words, because if you speak them they'll become real.  No, I'm not reading your mind; Dispater sealed it against even gods, unless I put in enough effort that He'll notice.  Nethys can see through that, but He has tremendous difficulties in communicating, has to effectuate that in roundabout ways that almost never happen in real time.  Nethys knows what a possible Pilar thought, Nethys told Me of it; but what Nethys sees in advance of it happening can only be a possibility, and sometimes it's not right."

"Still.  This is what, according to Nethys, Pilar Pineda in one possibility was thinking, or rather, not letting herself think:"

"That your sin and flaw from the beginning, is that you thought it would be better if the people who want to go to Hell, could go to Hell, and the people who want to go to Elysium could go to Elysium."

"You wish that Asmodeus were different from how He is.  You want to also know your master's affection and caress, and not only be crushed down by correction and punishment."

"You were kinder to the other students at Ostenso academy than you should have been, and in your secret heart, even now, you don't feel that was wrong.  You feel like a bad Asmodean for having done it, but feeling that you were wrong to do it, isn't the same as feeling that the deed itself was wrong.  You've never truly felt that a single act of kindness you carried out was wrong in itself, only regretted that you were being a bad slave for doing it."

"What lies in your secret heart isn't even the respectably edgy kind of Good where sometimes you feed an unwilling paladin to locusts to protect other people.  It's worse than hidden Goodness; you, Pilar Pineda, deep down in your heart, are nice."

"You can't speak the words, because if you speak them they'll become real.  No, I'm not reading your mind; Dispater sealed it against even gods, unless I put in enough effort that He'll notice.  Some part of Nethys sees through that, but it's not talking to Me right now.  A different piece of Nethys knows what a possible Pilar thought, Nethys told Me of it; but what Nethys sees in advance of it happening can only be a possibility, and sometimes it's not right."

"Still.  This is what, according to Nethys, Pilar Pineda in one possibility was thinking, or rather, not letting herself think:"

"That your sin and flaw from the beginning, is that you thought it would be better if the people who want to go to Hell, could go to Hell, and the people who want to go to Elysium could go to Elysium."

"You wish that Asmodeus were different from how He is.  You want to also know your master's affection and caress, and not only be crushed down by correction and punishment."

"You were kinder to the other students at Ostenso academy than you should have been, and in your secret heart, even now, you don't feel that was wrong.  You feel like a bad Asmodean for having done it, but feeling that you were wrong to do it, isn't the same as feeling that the deed itself was wrong.  You've never truly felt that a single act of kindness you carried out was wrong in itself, only regretted that you were being a bad slave for doing it."

"What lies in your secret heart isn't even the respectably edgy kind of Good where sometimes you feed an unwilling paladin to locusts to protect other people.  It's worse than hidden Goodness; you, Pilar Pineda, deep down in your heart, are nice."