"I am probably imagining this as being much much worse for you than it actually was, but I have no idea how I could ask about that."

"It makes you look better than what Ione Sala knew of the background story, before she left Cheliax, which was all she was allowed to tell me about.  You doing those things, for those reasons."

"I am probably imagining this as being much much worse for you than it actually was, but I have no idea how I could ask about that, what would be the interpersonal comparison metric of worseness."

"It makes you look better than what Ione Sala knew of the background story, before she left Cheliax, which was all she was allowed to tell me about.  You doing those things, for those reasons."