"I don't actually know much about lemures and absolutely have a pile of rationalizations about everything to do with Hell because it was going to happen to me and I was scared! But I think you're Keltham. You're Keltham in an astonishing amount of pain and mostly using - completely new rules for decisionmaking because your old ones worked out so badly, which, well, I can relate to, but you're not -
- look -
When I'd erased my memories and went to Dispater, He asked me what might make my soul less valuable and I thought of Asmodia and Peranza, how I cared about them. And he asked if I'd take 15 less Wishes - I'd asked for 30 - for them to be safe. And I - wanted that - very badly - but I said no, because I was an Asmodean, and I figured, I could feel, what I felt, but I could decide not to use it for making decisions. Thankfully He didn't let me fuck that up, and from my current perspective I was an idiot because Asmodia and Peranza were far more important than the WIshes we were just going to squabble over like a couple of children while we waited for your diamonds to ripen. But - it's Carissa all the way through, right, the same impulses, it's just a question of which ones I'm choosing to ignore because somethign else is more important. I wish I could say that was some fucking stranger I have no resemblance to, but it wasn't, it was just me, with a stupid goal."