It is clear, looking back at her own actions, that she has been behaving in a way that Sevar would call 'muddled'.  And there's a very obvious explanation for it, which is that she does hate Cheliax, didn't want Cheliax to win, that everyone in the self-proclaimed 'Church faction' distrusting her on that account was in fact being pretty reasonable about that; and Asmodia herself did not face up to that, did not know her own reason for staying and could not clearly optimize around that reason.

She wishes, in retrospect, that Pilar had demanded from her earlier, to know her reason for working for a country she hates, and pierced past her first answer.  Asmodia might have respected the question, the demand, if it came from Pilar.

It is clear, looking back at her own actions, that she has been behaving in a way that Sevar would call 'muddled'.  And there's a very obvious explanation for it, which is that she does hate Cheliax, didn't want Cheliax to win, that everyone in the self-proclaimed 'Church faction' distrusting her on that account was in fact being pretty reasonable about that; and Asmodia herself did not face up to that, did not know her own reason for staying and could not clearly optimize around that reason.

She wishes, in retrospect, that Pilar had demanded from her earlier, to know Asmodia's reason why she'd do good work for a country she hates, and pierced past her first answer.  Asmodia might have respected the question, the demand, if it came from Pilar.