"Not necessarily an option I have, based on what I've read about clerics work.  If my psychology drifts too far away from - believing in what Abadar is doing - the bond just breaks whether I like it or not, as I understand it, and I'm not sure that it lasts past my next serious library visit at this rate."

"But I can wait a couple of weeks on the Atonement, sure, if that's even something I want to do, to be clear, I am not failing to hear the part where you can supposedly buy a safe suicide for 1000gp.  And I'm obviously not going to kill myself until I've repaid my debt to Abadar, which, even with a Ring of Sustenance and spamming Lesser Restorations and a Splendour headband, is going to take more than a couple of weeks.  There were things much worse than death that could've happened to me, and I acknowledge in full the debt I owe to Abadar for that."

"Not necessarily an option I have, based on what I've read about clerics work.  If my psychology drifts too far away from - believing my purpose aligned to Abadar's - the bond just breaks whether I like it or not, as I understand it, and I'm not sure that it lasts past my next serious library visit at this rate."

"But I can wait a couple of weeks on the Atonement, sure, if that's even something I want to do, to be clear, I am not failing to hear the part where you can supposedly buy a safe suicide for 1000gp.  And I'm obviously not going to kill myself until I've repaid my debt to Abadar, which, even with a Ring of Sustenance and spamming Lesser Restorations and a Splendour headband, is going to take more than a couple of weeks.  There were things much worse than death that could've happened to me, and I acknowledge in full the debt I owe to Abadar for that."

"Not necessarily an option I have, based on what I've read about clerics work.  If my psychology drifts too far away from - believing my purpose aligned to Abadar's - the bond just breaks whether I like it or not, as I understand it, and I'm not sure that it lasts past my next serious library visit at this rate."

"But I can wait a couple of weeks on the Atonement, sure, if that's even something I want to do, to be clear, I am not failing to hear the part where you can supposedly buy a safe suicide for 1000gp, though I'd worry about reliability.  And I'm obviously not going to kill myself until I've repaid my debt to Abadar, which, even with a Ring of Sustenance and spamming Lesser Restorations and a Splendour headband, is going to take more than a couple of weeks.  There were things much worse than death that could've happened to me, and I acknowledge in full the debt I owe to Abadar for that."

"Not necessarily an option I have, based on what I've read about how clerics work.  If my psychology drifts too far away from - believing my purpose aligned to Abadar's - the bond just breaks whether I like it or not, as I understand it, and I'm not sure that it lasts past my next serious library visit at this rate."

"But I can wait a couple of weeks on the Atonement, sure, if that's even something I want to do, to be clear, I am not failing to hear the part where you can supposedly buy a safe suicide for 1000gp, though I'd worry about reliability.  And I'm obviously not going to kill myself until I've repaid my debt to Abadar, which, even with a Ring of Sustenance and spamming Lesser Restorations and a Splendour headband, is going to take more than a couple of weeks.  There were things much worse than death that could've happened to me, and I acknowledge in full the debt I owe to Abadar for that."