Since fucking always!  Pilar was always just too angry at her curse to properly learn to use any of her own powers.

Since fucking always!  Pilar was always just too angry at her curse to try using her own powers for herself.

Since fucking always!  That one time with Sevar you did try to plan your own parties, you could tell whether they'd go through or not, remember?  Pilar just got too angry at her curse to try using her own powers for herself.