"This started when I was yanked from Ostenso academy on half an hour's notice and told I was now part of a seduction mission on a visiting human outsider, whom Asmodeus had designated as important in a vision, and who'd expressed interests in having lots of kids, and who was being deceived about the nature of Evil, Asmodeus, and Cheliax. It was said that you were of high Intelligence and your children might be valuable to Cheliax."
"The topic of whether I wanted to have sex with you was not, I think, one that it occurred to anybody in this process, including myself, might be at all relevant, at this stage."
"I'd grown up in Cheliax, and I was one of the top students at the academy. One of the ones who gets to punish the weak students, not one of the bad students who gets punished. I don't think I was as distressed as Ione was, by having to practice Acid Splash on prisoners and criminals and, yes, occasionally orphans with no other uses except to damn us. I thought of myself as one of the ambitious ones, who makes something of herself and doesn't just do well in class, even if that meant taking risks. I've had about as much sex as the average Ostenso student, mostly with people who would have had the power to hurt me otherwise, occasionally in trade for favors, because whether you want anything is not particularly relevant to the game you play not to end up one of the weak students at the bottom."
"We didn't know how often our minds were being read for signs of disloyalty. I'd guess around once a month officially, but all of us second-circles were trying Detect Thoughts on each other and weaker students all the time."
"Next significant event at the villa - when Ione got oracled and they decided that the rest of us needed to sell our souls to Hell before any other gods touched us - the implicit 'or die and go to Hell anyways' wasn't said explicitly, but it was pretty obvious - I tried, the only time in my life, because I thought - it wouldn't matter, after I sold my soul, they let you think more of your own thoughts after that, it's said - I asked any of the Good gods to, protect me, if that was possible, or kill me and take my soul, if they couldn't, because I thought, just once, that maybe - maybe they'd lied to me about everything - about the Good gods being weak, even about my already being damned to Hell -"
"None of the gods of Good came for me."
"The devil who I bargained with told me that I'd been a bad slave, and now I was only allowed to sell my soul to them and live, instead of dying and going to Hell anyways, if I could manage to sincerely thank him for giving me that much a chance."
"I had a bad night, that night, after selling my soul, because of my heresy."
"Then - everything changed when Nidal attacked -"
"I died, and - hold on -"
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