Three days ago, now, Keltham talked to the mad-experimental lecture section about the principle of Despair in the Futility of Attempted Madness, as a pathway towards sanity:

How, if you notice yourself trying to convince yourself of something, you should then think that it's obviously too late for you to pull that trick on yourself, once you know what you're trying to do to yourself, there, the Law of Filtered Evidence should apply to whatever biased search for arguments your mind tries to run.

How, if you find yourself trying to talk yourself out of knowing, you should think then with despair that it's already too late.

How, if you try to talk yourself into defying the Law, you should look to the part of yourself that knows deep down that the Law is true and your defiance is not.

Keltham said to remember then that you've already been trained to know the difference between wishing you believed something, wanting to believe something, hoping that you believe something, and anticipating it, the feeling of knowing what happens if you bet, and you should despair then that it's too late and you already know what you don't really believe.  Give up, lose hope, and know what it is that you already know.

It could be considered something akin to an attempted hypnotic instruction to believe you can't deceive yourself anymore.

Peranza tried very hard not to think about any of it.

Three days ago, now, Keltham talked to the mad-experimental lecture section about the principle of Despair in the Futility of Attempted Madness, as a pathway towards sanity:

How, if you notice yourself trying to convince yourself of something, you should then think that it's obviously too late for you to pull that trick on yourself.  Once you know what you're trying to do to yourself, there, the Law of Filtered Evidence should apply to whatever biased search for arguments your mind tries to run.

How, if you find yourself trying to talk yourself out of knowing, you should think then with despair that it's already too late.

How, if you try to talk yourself into defying the Law, you should look to the part of yourself that knows deep down that the Law governs and your defiance does not.

Keltham said to remember then that you've already been trained to know the difference between wishing you believed something, versus wanting to believe something, versus hoping that you believe something, versus anticipating seeing it, the feeling of knowing what happens if you bet.  You should despair then that it's too late and you already know what you don't really believe.  Give up, lose hope, and know what it is that you already know.

It could be considered something akin to an attempted hypnotic instruction to believe you can't deceive yourself anymore.

Peranza tried very hard not to think about any of it.

Three days ago, now, Keltham talked to the mad-experimental lecture section about the principle of Despair in the Futility of Madness, as a pathway towards sanity:

How, if you notice yourself trying to convince yourself of something, you should then think that it's obviously too late for you to pull that trick on yourself.  Once you know what you're trying to do to yourself, there, the Law of Filtered Evidence should apply to whatever biased search for arguments your mind tries to run.

How, if you find yourself trying to talk yourself out of knowing, you should think then with despair that it's already too late.

How, if you try to talk yourself into defying the Law, you should look to the part of yourself that knows deep down that the Law governs and your defiance does not.

Keltham said to remember then that you've already been trained to know the difference between wishing you believed something, versus wanting to believe something, versus hoping that you believe something, versus anticipating seeing it, the feeling of knowing what happens if you bet.  You should despair then that it's too late and you already know what you don't really believe.  Give up, lose hope, and know what it is that you already know.

It could be considered something akin to an attempted hypnotic instruction to believe you can't deceive yourself anymore.

Peranza tried very hard not to think about any of it.