"I realized that I'm made almost entirely out of stupid muddled mistakes.  That I'm not remotely as good a slave to Asmodeus as I thought.  That even if I can raise twenty thousand gold my mother and sister will still refuse resurrection and I'll never see them again.  There was a complicated muddle at the center of my sexuality which has now collapsed and I am still trying to figure out what, if anything, I'll be able to enjoy."

"It's also obvious that everything you taught me is necessary basic ilani skills.  They're going to wreck most people from Golarion who try to learn them, and not all of those will recover.  That's going to be an issue."

"I realized that I'm made almost entirely out of stupid muddled mistakes.  That I'm not remotely as good a slave to Asmodeus as I thought.  That even if I can raise twenty thousand gold my mother and sister will still refuse resurrection and I'll never see them again.  That there was a complicated muddle at the center of my sexuality, being simultaneously in denial and not in denial about what I need, which has now collapsed and taken down my sexuality with it, and I am still trying to figure out what, if anything, I'll be able to enjoy."

"It's also obvious that everything you taught me is necessary basic ilani skills.  They're going to wreck most people from Golarion who try to learn them, and not all of those will recover.  That's going to be an issue."

"I realized that I'm made almost entirely out of stupid muddled mistakes.  That I'm not remotely as good a slave to Asmodeus as I thought.  That even if I can raise twenty thousand gold my mother and sister will still refuse resurrection and I'll never see them again.  That there was a complicated muddle at the center of my sexuality, being simultaneously in denial and not in denial about what I need, which has now collapsed and taken down my sexuality with it, and I am still trying to figure out what, if anything, I'll be able to enjoy."

"It's also obvious that everything you taught me is necessary basic ilani skills.  They're going to wreck most people from Golarion who try to learn them, and not all of those will recover.  That's going to be an issue, Keltham."