"It's - the thing I wanted the instant I first saw it. To have the Law and be perfect and not have to wait a thousand years until Hell is done with me. To wear the fanciest headband I can get my head on at all times, to understand everything. I think all wizards are like that, maybe, to some degree. You keep getting a taste of what it'd be like to be smarter.

But - 

- okay, when I think about you ordering me not to become a Keeper because it might hurt me, I mostly feel annoyed, like, have you met me, I don't care if things hurt me, I care if they strengthen me. When I think about you ordering me not to become a Keeper because it might hurt you, well, I'm willing to be weaker to be the shape you need. Not forever. But for a while, maybe for as long as you need it because I don't think you'll need it forever. 

And Keltham - the most powerful kinds of devil? Becoming them hurts. I don't know the details because it's not, like, physical pain, if it were that you could just take painkillers or something, but it hurts some kind of deeper way, and that's why many people never turn into the most powerful kind of devil. 

But I absolutely intended to. Still intend to except insofar as I'm now thinking maybe I want to become an archdevil and command a whole layer of Hell myself."

"It's - the thing I wanted the instant I first saw it. To have the Law and be perfect and not have to wait a thousand years until Hell is done with me. To wear the fanciest headband I can get my hands on at all times, to understand everything. I think all wizards are like that, maybe, to some degree. You keep getting a taste of what it'd be like to be smarter.

But - 

- okay, when I think about you ordering me not to become a Keeper because it might hurt me, I mostly feel annoyed, like, have you met me, I don't care if things hurt me, I care if they strengthen me. When I think about you ordering me not to become a Keeper because it might hurt you, well, I'm willing to be weaker to be the shape you need. Not forever. But for a while, maybe for as long as you need it because I don't think you'll need it forever. 

And Keltham - the most powerful kinds of devil? Becoming them hurts. I don't know the details because it's not, like, physical pain, if it were that you could just take painkillers or something, but it hurts some kind of deeper way, and that's why many people never turn into the most powerful kind of devil. 

But I absolutely intended to. Still intend to except insofar as I'm now thinking maybe I want to become an archdevil and command a whole layer of Hell myself."