" - not with me, not really, though I get why Pilar - Pilar is clearly a lot more devout that me." She chuckles weakly. "I - I'm fine with taking it very very slowly? I'm fine with it taking all this lifetime, if that's what - needs to happen. I don't want to be flawed forever. So I'll become a devil eventually, or a god I guess. I wouldn't want to never be that, it'd be like - never being allowed to grow up? 

And - in general Asmodeans are in a hurry to grow up. Because our world isn't the kind of place where you have the luxury of - being basically all right while you figure things out unspoiled."

" - not with me, not really, though I get why Pilar - Pilar is clearly a lot more devout than me." She chuckles weakly. "I - I'm fine with taking it very very slowly? I'm fine with it taking all this lifetime, if that's what - needs to happen. I don't want to be flawed forever. So I'll become a devil eventually, or a god I guess. I wouldn't want to never be that, it'd be like - never being allowed to grow up? 

And - in general Asmodeans are in a hurry to grow up. Because our world isn't the kind of place where you have the luxury of - being basically all right while you figure things out unspoiled."

" - not with me, not really, though I get why Pilar - Pilar is clearly a lot more devout than me." She chuckles weakly. "I - I'm fine with taking it very very slowly? I'm fine with it taking all this lifetime, if that's what - needs to happen. I don't want to be flawed forever. So I'll become a devil eventually, or a god I guess. I wouldn't want to never be that, it'd be like - never being allowed to grow up? 

And - in general Asmodeans are in a hurry to grow up. Because our world isn't the kind of place where you have the luxury of - being basically all right while you figure things out unspoiled."

Is any of that true? Don't ask Carissa, she doesn't know! It feels true enough when she says it.