"I wasn't - very good at arguing this, when I tried to argue it to the Elysians, and the Grand High Priestess told me afterwards that it was wrong for me to have tried, because they weren't persuadable - but I'll try again -"

"Because I can't exist without somebody above me who hurts me and tells me what to do and punishes me if I don't do it, and what they tell me doesn't have to be perfect but it has to mean something.  I mean, not just anything, but - it's the Lawful part of Lawful Evil, what the punishments and the right behaviors are about.  And it can't be somebody who's just, using me as a slave on a farm, and not forcing me onto a right path, like Neutral Evil or Chaotic Evil.  It can't be someone who hurts me because they think I enjoy it and they respect my personal individual desires, like Chaotic Good, that's meaningless, that's not - about the thing that Lord Asmodeus is about."

"I don't know how to say it.  It's just very obvious to me that even if Lord Asmodeus doesn't care about me except as a useful thing, or a pretty thing, that there's no other god I've ever heard of that matches the shape of my own soul."

(though Pilar does sometimes wish that Asmodeus were a little different, in some ways, from exactly what He is)

"I wasn't - very good at arguing this, when I tried to argue it to the Elysians, and the Grand High Priestess told me afterwards that it was wrong for me to have tried, because they weren't persuadable - but I'll try again -"

"Because I can't exist without somebody above me who hurts me and tells me what to do and punishes me if I don't do it, and what they tell me doesn't have to be perfect but it has to mean something.  I mean, not just anything, but - it's the Lawful part of Lawful Evil, what the punishments and the right behaviors are about.  And it can't be somebody who's just, using me as a slave on a farm, and not forcing me onto a right path, like Neutral Evil or Chaotic Evil.  It can't be someone who hurts me because they think I enjoy it and they respect my personal individual desires, like Chaotic Good, that's meaningless, that's not - about the thing that Lord Asmodeus is about."

"I don't know how to say it.  It's just very obvious to me that even if Lord Asmodeus doesn't care about me except as a useful thing, or maybe at best a pretty thing, there's no other god I've ever heard of that matches the shape of my own soul."

(though Pilar does sometimes wish that Asmodeus were a little different, in some ways, from exactly what He is)

"I wasn't - very good at arguing this, when I tried to argue it to the Elysians, and the Grand High Priestess told me afterwards that it was wrong for me to have tried, because they weren't persuadable - but I'll try again -"

"Because I can't exist without somebody above me who hurts me and tells me what to do and punishes me if I don't do it, and what they tell me doesn't have to be perfect but it has to mean something.  I mean, not just anything, but - it's the Lawful part of Lawful Evil, what the punishments and the right behaviors are about.  And it can't be somebody Neutral Evil or Chaotic Evil who's just, using me as a slave on a farm, and not forcing me onto a right path.  It can't be someone who hurts me because they think I enjoy it and they respect my personal individual desires, like Chaotic Good, that's meaningless, that's not - about the thing that Lord Asmodeus is about."

"I don't know how to say it.  It's just very obvious to me that even if Lord Asmodeus doesn't care about me except as a useful thing, or maybe at best a pretty thing, there's no other god I've ever heard of that matches the shape of my own soul."

(though Pilar does sometimes wish that Asmodeus were a little different, in some ways, from exactly what He is)

"I wasn't - very good at arguing this, when I tried to argue it to the Elysians, and the Grand High Priestess told me afterwards that it was wrong for me to have tried, because they weren't persuadable - but I'll try again -"

"Because I can't exist without somebody above me who hurts me and tells me what to do and punishes me if I don't do it, and what they tell me doesn't have to be perfect but it has to mean something.  I mean, not just anything, but - it's the Lawful part of Lawful Evil, what the punishments and the right behaviors are about.  It can't be somebody Neutral Evil or Chaotic Evil who's just, using me as a slave on a farm, and not forcing me onto a right path.  It can't be someone who hurts me because they think I enjoy it and they respect my personal individual desires, like Chaotic Good, that's meaningless, that's not - about the thing that Lord Asmodeus is about."

"I don't know how to say it.  It's just very obvious to me that even if Lord Asmodeus doesn't care about me except as a useful thing, or maybe at best a pretty thing, there's no other god I've ever heard of that matches the shape of my own soul."

(though Pilar does sometimes wish that Asmodeus were a little different, in some ways, from exactly what He is)

"I wasn't - very good at arguing this, when I tried to argue it to the Elysians, and the Grand High Priestess told me afterwards that it was wrong for me to have tried, because they weren't persuadable - but I'll try again -"

"Because I can't exist without somebody above me who hurts me and tells me what to do and punishes me if I don't do it, and what they tell me doesn't have to be perfect but it has to mean something.  I mean, not just anything, but - it's the Lawful part of Lawful Evil, what the punishments and the right behaviors are about.  It can't be somebody Neutral Evil or Chaotic Evil who's just, using me as a slave on a farm, and not forcing me onto a right path.  It can't be someone who hurts me because they think I enjoy it and they respect my personal individual desires, like Chaotic Good, that's meaningless, that's not - about the thing that Lord Asmodeus is about."

"I don't know how to say it.  The Elysians kept arguing to me that Asmodeus didn't deserve my loyalty because He didn't care about me except as a useful thing, or at best a pretty thing to own, and, I mean, fine?  It's just very obvious to me that there's no other god I've ever heard of besides Lord Asmodeus who matches the shape of my own soul.  It's not an exchange, it's not a friendship, He's just the god of Pilars."

(though Pilar does sometimes wish that Asmodeus were a little different, in some ways, from exactly what He is)