"Stop, Carissa.  You are letting your thoughts run too far ahead with complications," Jacint says, with a soft smile backed by enough Splendour that even the Sevar might pause before concluding that, no, it wasn't sincere.  Trying that hard to send the false message still sends a message in its own right.  "The Queen, I was recently told, also now suspects that only Pilar will be able to become a true dath ilani out of our project.  Why?  Because the Queen thinks that among the important qualities of Abrogail Thrune II is that she does not go about constantly terrified of thinking the wrong thing.  It was part of why she felt it necessary to take her time to remake you, that she'd noticed your thoughts collapsing under the pressure of being read so often, and what you feared about that."

"That part of the Queen's work is not something I mean to undo, or even threaten, not today while her work is still recovering itself into its new shape."

"But do you understand why Pilar could do it so easily, this thing with which you struggle so?  It's not that Pilar never thinks thoughts she knows might incur punishment.  It's that, having thought such things, she knows her transgression, and desires to be punished to expiate her guilt.  Not, necessarily, successfully corrected so that the thought never occurs to her again.  Just punished.  Pilar might wish for that correction, but she knows that only Hell has that power, and that for Hell she must wait."

"Would you still be afraid of punishment for your admittedly severe transgression of thought, if you asked yourself how much punishment would be required to ease your sense of transgression and make matters right between yourself and your faith, and did not ask yourself to what extremes you would need to be tortured to break you and remake you to correct and erase the thought forever?  Answer honestly; I can have your thoughts read, if I like, but these words I think it important for you to speak with your own lips, whatever they may be."

"Stop, Carissa.  You are letting your thoughts run too far ahead with complications," Jacint says, with a soft smile backed by enough Splendour that even the Sevar might pause before concluding that, no, it wasn't sincere.  Trying that hard to send the false message still sends a message in its own right.  "The Queen, I was recently told, also now suspects that only Pilar will be able to become a true dath ilani out of our project.  Why?  Because the Queen thinks that among the important qualities of Abrogail Thrune II is that she does not go about constantly terrified of thinking the wrong thing.  It was part of why she felt it necessary to take her time to remake you, that she'd noticed your thoughts collapsing under the pressure of being read so often, and what you feared about that."

"That part of the Queen's work is not something I mean to undo.  Nor even threaten, not today while her work is still recovering itself into its new shape."

"But do you understand why Pilar could do it so easily, this thing with which you struggle so?  It's not that Pilar never thinks thoughts she knows might incur punishment.  It's that, having thought such things, she knows her transgression, and desires to be punished to expiate her guilt.  Not, necessarily, successfully corrected so that the thought never occurs to her again.  Just punished.  Pilar might wish for that correction, but she knows that only Hell has that power, and that for Hell she must wait."

"Would you still be afraid of punishment for your admittedly severe transgression of thought, if you asked yourself how much punishment would be required to ease your sense of transgression and make matters right between yourself and your faith, and did not ask yourself to what extremes you would need to be tortured to break you and remake you to correct and erase the thought forever?  Answer honestly; I can have your thoughts read, if I like, but these words I think it important for you to speak with your own lips, whatever they may be."

"Stop, Carissa.  You are letting your thoughts run too far ahead with complications," Jacint says, with a soft smile backed by enough Splendour that even the Sevar might pause before concluding that, no, it wasn't sincere.  Trying that hard to send the false message still sends a message in its own right.  "The Queen, I was recently told, also now suspects that only Pilar will be able to become a true dath ilani out of our project.  Why?  Because the Queen thinks that among the important qualities of Abrogail Thrune II is that she does not go about constantly terrified of thinking the wrong thing.  It was part of why she felt it necessary to take her time to remake you, that she'd noticed your thoughts collapsing under the pressure of being read so often."

"That part of the Queen's work is not something I mean to undo.  Nor even threaten, not today while her work is still recovering itself into its new shape."

"But do you understand why Pilar could do it so easily, this thing with which you struggle so?  It's not that Pilar never thinks thoughts she knows might incur punishment.  It's that, having thought such things, she knows her transgression, and desires to be punished to expiate her guilt.  Not, necessarily, successfully corrected so that the thought never occurs to her again.  Just punished.  Pilar might wish for that correction, but she knows that only Hell has that power, and that for Hell she must wait."

"Would you still be afraid of punishment for your admittedly severe transgression of thought, if you asked yourself how much punishment would be required to ease your sense of transgression and make matters right between yourself and your faith, and did not ask yourself to what extremes you would need to be tortured to break you and remake you to correct and erase the thought forever?  Answer honestly; I can have your thoughts read, if I like, but these words I think it important for you to speak with your own lips, whatever they may be."

"Stop, Carissa.  You are letting your thoughts run too far ahead with complications," Jacint says, with a soft smile backed by enough Splendour that even the Sevar might pause before concluding that, no, it wasn't sincere.  Trying that hard to send the false message still sends a message in its own right.  "The Queen, I was recently told, also now suspects that only Pilar will be able to become a true dath ilani out of our project.  Why?  Because the Queen thinks that among the important qualities of her own competence is that the Queen does not go about constantly terrified of thinking the wrong thing.  It was part of why she felt it necessary to take her time to remake you, that she'd noticed your thoughts collapsing under the pressure of being read so often."

"That part of the Queen's work is not something I mean to undo.  Nor even threaten, not today while her work is still recovering itself into its new shape."

"But do you understand why Pilar could do it so easily, this thing with which you struggle so?  It's not that Pilar never thinks thoughts she knows might incur punishment.  It's that, having thought such things, she knows her transgression, and desires to be punished to expiate her guilt.  Not, necessarily, successfully corrected so that the thought never occurs to her again.  Just punished.  Pilar might wish for that correction, but she knows that only Hell has that power, and that for Hell she must wait."

"Would you still be afraid of punishment for your admittedly severe transgression of thought, if you asked yourself how much punishment would be required to ease your sense of transgression and make matters right between yourself and your faith, and did not ask yourself to what extremes you would need to be tortured to break you and remake you to correct and erase the thought forever?  Answer honestly; I can have your thoughts read, if I like, but these words I think it important for you to speak with your own lips, whatever they may be."

"Stop, Carissa.  You are letting your thoughts run too far ahead with complications," Jacint says, with a soft smile backed by enough Splendour that even Sevar might pause before concluding that, no, it wasn't sincere.  Trying that hard to send the false message still sends a message in its own right.  "The Queen, I was recently told, also now suspects that only Pilar will be able to become a true dath ilani out of our project.  Why?  Because the Queen thinks that among the important qualities of her own competence is that the Queen does not go about constantly terrified of thinking the wrong thing.  It was part of why she felt it necessary to take her time to remake you, that she'd noticed your thoughts collapsing under the pressure of being read so often."

"That part of the Queen's work is not something I mean to undo.  Nor even threaten, not today while her work is still recovering itself into its new shape."

"But do you understand why Pilar could do it so easily, this thing with which you struggle so?  It's not that Pilar never thinks thoughts she knows might incur punishment.  It's that, having thought such things, she knows her transgression, and desires to be punished to expiate her guilt.  Not, necessarily, successfully corrected so that the thought never occurs to her again.  Just punished.  Pilar might wish for that correction, but she knows that only Hell has that power, and that for Hell she must wait."

"Would you still be afraid of punishment for your admittedly severe transgression of thought, if you asked yourself how much punishment would be required to ease your sense of transgression and make matters right between yourself and your faith, and did not ask yourself to what extremes you would need to be tortured to break you and remake you to correct and erase the thought forever?  Answer honestly; I can have your thoughts read, if I like, but these words I think it important for you to speak with your own lips, whatever they may be."