Asmodia is trying very hard to convince herself that, when she decided to come back, she didn't expect any reprieve like this in the first place, and also, that if she gets singled out for the worst of this, it still won't be a bad thing nearly bad enough to make up for the good thing that happened to her, it won't prove that something hates her equally as much, maybe she got the help she did because this was going to happen to her, to help her survive it, because if she were fated to draw the wrong slip now and hadn't received that help earlier, it certainly would have broken her, which it isn't going to now, right...
Someone, somewhere, Asmodia thinks to herself, and watches Carissa Sevar draw a slip of paper.