She'll try having any fun, but mostly work on scribing faster and doing better work.
(Cutting off his ears feels more awful and poisonous than fun but it at least feels like she's inflicting her own pain onto somebody else and showing she's not literally at the lowest rung of Hell and maybe that counts for something with Somebody even if it doesn't move her contract devil any.)
They'll still probably raise her. She doesn't want to exist. They'll still probably raise her. Nothing good will ever happen to her even after they do. But it will be better than this. Temporarily. Then it will be worse. They'll still probably raise her. Maybe if she focuses really hard on copy spell diagrams she can stop constantly remembering she exists and that will be at least a little bit like not existing. They'll still probably raise her. She hates the universe and everything in the universe because everything in the universe hates her and never helps her no she can't think that when she goes back Security will hear her thinking that and worry she's going to become a Rovagug cultist and execute her and send her straight to Hell to be tortured for real and so she can't think that ever again. Because they'll still probably raise her.