They - don't say you're supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once, at least - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-protection and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who he is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.  The part of himself that is terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't remember unseeing things he should have seen.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.

They - don't say you're supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once, at least - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-protection and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who he is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.

The part of himself that is terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't remember unseeing things he should have been too young and stupid to see.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.

They - do also say you're not supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-protection and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who Keltham is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.

The part of himself that's terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't remember unseeing things he should have been too young and stupid to see.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.

They - do also say you're not supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-integrity and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who Keltham is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.

The part of himself that's terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't remember unseeing things he should have been too young and stupid to see.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.

They - also say you're not supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-integrity and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who Keltham is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.

The part of himself that's terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't remember unseeing things he should have been too young and stupid to see.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.

They - also say you're not supposed to throw away and revise your entire personality at once - and he is still himself, he is still Keltham, he is not an average dath ilani carrying out a LARP assignment of being more selfish than average, he is actually the person who didn't need to be taught self-integrity and who wanted to be paid for helping somebody else.  If he decides to change things, it will have to be built around who Keltham is, a person who is not an average dath ilani.  And an average dath ilani would have to make changes too, if they were here.  Only a Keeper is supposed to be built out of pure sharp coherent abstractions that could walk from one world to another and not need to change their clothes along the way.

The part of himself that's terrified he's going to suddenly admit that everything he holds dear was a factual mistake and turn himself into an average dath ilani in dath ilan, is - probably right to be terrified in some ways, because in many particular dimensions that's a kind of decision that his Wiser self left open as a possibility, and he can't unsee or unremember things he should have been too young and stupid to see.  But he is not supposed to turn into an average dath ilani in dath ilan.  He needs to be Keltham in Golarion.