"I either need to read a cognitively realistic fiction written from the perspective of a parallel-dimension human who arrives in this world and is initially horrified by submission but slowly and gradually finds out the information that changes everything about that, which part of me is even horrifying that I am saying out loud as a possibility; or I need to persuade you that certain things are not okay, so we can throw the entirety of our strength behind also making that better; or we have to diverge our ways because of values differences, with me acknowledging that I owe you for initial help and also still helping you with resurrection if I can and bloodbaths still never being in the cards; or I have to read enough research to be really really convinced that my eclipse will not turn me into a masochist; or I have to write down everything dath ilan knows that could be useful to you, and then kill myself before my eclipse and try to go be lost and dead somewhere else; or make my meliorizable plan about this be something sometime soon, because my current emotional state is not sustainable on a timescale of months."

"I either need to read a cognitively realistic fiction written from the perspective of a parallel-dimension human who arrives in this world and is initially horrified by submission but slowly and gradually finds out the information that changes everything about that, which part of me is even horrified that I am saying out loud as a possibility; or I need to persuade you that certain things are not okay, so we can throw the entirety of our strength behind also making that better; or we have to diverge our ways because of values differences, with me acknowledging that I owe you for initial help and also still helping you with resurrection if I can and bloodbaths still never being in the cards; or I have to read enough research to be really really convinced that my eclipse will not turn me into a masochist; or I have to write down everything dath ilan knows that could be useful to you, and then kill myself before my eclipse and try to go be lost and dead somewhere else; or make my meliorizable plan about this be something sometime soon, because my current emotional state is not sustainable on a timescale of months."

"I either need to read a cognitively realistic fiction written from the perspective of a parallel-dimension human who arrives in this world and is initially horrified by submission but slowly and gradually finds out the information that changes everything about that, which part of me is even horrified that I am saying out loud as a possibility; or I need to persuade you that certain things are not okay, so we can throw the entirety of our strength behind also making that better; or we have to diverge our ways because of values differences, with me acknowledging that I owe you for initial help and also still helping you with resurrection if I can and bloodbaths still never being in the cards; or I have to read enough research to be really really convinced that my eclipse will not turn me into a masochist; or I have to write down all my knowledge of dath ilan that could be useful to you, and then kill myself before my eclipse and try to go be lost and dead somewhere else; or make my meliorizable plan about this be something sometime soon, because my current emotional state is not sustainable on a timescale of months."