She obeys the emergency command, even if it's not phrased in the expected format for one.
Why does she feel bad about the state the conversation got to? Oh, right. Because her brain thinks she's not supposed to decide that, just because their problem is hard to unravel, it's okay to go to a neutral university instead. She's supposed to understand what's really happening her and why and then she can decide whether this world can be helped most effectively by working inside Valdemar or outside it.
She just doesn't know whether that's sane, non-suicidal, reasoning in real life.
Her fiction-pattern-recognition center is also raising questions about how likely it is that she landed next to a very powerful and self-sacrificing mage by pure coincidence.
She also doesn't know if that's good reasoning for her life now.
:Talking to people who know more about the big picture sounds like a good idea,: she sends after she's had time to think that far. :I shouldn't make any big decisions until I know all the info that's easy to obtain and maybe a bit more.: